October 26, 2009

I was just looking through some random pictures on fb and I found one of this guy I don’t speak to much anymore. Oh my goodness… I almost forgot how incredibly good looking he is! Maybe more than a year ago just the mere glance from him would have left me swooning Things change I guess; after knowing one’s personality, a person can become more or less attractive depending on your impression of them, despite their appearance not having changed one bit. But still… He’s drop dead gorgeous! haha!

I had the most awesome spiritual experience yesterday, I feel so free and happy now. Thank God for releasing me from my anxiety! I’ll be making a move on now, I’ll keep on going…

already gone October 20, 2009

It’s a dawn of a new age, something good is coming but it won’t come without much hard work. I know what I have to do, Lord help me to persevere and grant me the understanding that I need to do my work well! I gotta humble myself and learn, stop thinking I know everything and that everything’s going to come so easily…

I’m thankful for loving, supportive friends who really care about me; where would I be without them? I’ve grown so much this year because of you guys, love you lots! <3

as long as you love me October 10, 2009

I need You now Lord, carry me high…

Staying back in school to study this entire week has been an interesting experience; I met and talked to so many people I thought I’d never speak to! Being shy has almost always been to my disadvantage, but I guess God gave me the courage to be confident and just be myself (: Studying is definitely more productive and I’m making progress! Praise God for all that He’s done! (:

The lesson at CF yesterday was about surrendering and letting God have His way in us. It really touched me so I went forward during the altar call hoping to recieve but I don’t think I heard anything from God and I was terribly disappointed :S But the upside was that I comforted a friend (: Sometimes God puts us through experiences where there’s a lot of pain and suffering so that we can learn to depend on Him. Later on, we too can help people who are going through similar experiences. Thank you God for helping me through this time (:

I learnt to be more understanding of others and to not pass judgement as I’ve so often done. We’re all people with hopes, desires, needs after all (:

I would not say that I like you, but I will say that I love you. I can’t give you what you want, I hope you’ll understand. I’ll always love you <3

fly like a bird October 4, 2009

Desperation. I’m still here. Don’t worry about me. I’ll always be here. No matter what happens. No matter what it looks like. I’ll be here.

Crazy week this was. I think I had the most horrible forced separation from a friend and the most embarrasing encounter with KSL ): It’s funny how once you take an event out of it’s context it looks completely scandalous or just simply wrong. Get all the facts people and stop thinking that you know every thing especially when you don’t.

You fit into my jigsaw puzzle…

>.< September 24, 2009

I feel the pain; it sears hard straight into my heart and burns scarlet on the apples of my face. I can’t hide what I’m feeling. I thought I bid this feeling goodbye eons ago, but it’s come back to haunt me! Now, of all times!

Before panic sets in and anarchy breaks loose, I have to get a hold of myself. I can do this!

I have to do what I need to do, Lord please help me!

fizz origin! September 20, 2009

I’ve had a lot to chew on lately… Things haven’t worked out as I planned it would and I wasn’t feeling very well. Thankfully through this time, there were family and friends to support me; I almost forgot I could ask for help!

3 major things to remember:
1. To give my ALL to the ‘A’s
2. To be more understanding of others
3. To be more open and honest

most of all: BE POSITIVE

Thanks for all the encouraging talks and messages! I haven’t felt more loved <3

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September 18, 2009

lonely blogger indeed…

verde September 15, 2009

<3 Snowy

green ham and eggs anyone?

bitter heart September 14, 2009

Bitter heart, bitter heart
tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart
shadows will help you try to hide
Bitter heart my bitter heart
is getting just a little fragile
Bitter heart bitter heart
of mine

I’m loving this song; I already feel myself being gently lulled to sleep by the sultry vocals and the light acoustic guitar accompaniment. Simple and rhythmic is what music should be.

Staying up to 2.24 am doing my IS is something that I don’t regret but don’t want to ever have to go through again. So much for procrastinating; guess I don’t mind losing sleep over doing my work well and that’s a good sign. I forsee at least a gazillion more of those nights coming my way real soon

It’ll all be over soon, it’ll all be over soon, it’ll all be over soon…