today was a horrible day.
I was supposed to give my testimony at MLM but failed to because I was having a heated discussion about studying with my mom. Apparently my studying method is not good enough because my grades don’t seem to show it. For some reason, I became hysterical over the phone and started crying. So not the right time to have swollen eyes and a blocked nose. So I cancelled my sharing. I hope it wasn’t obvious that I wasn’t there.
the sore mood pretty much carried on into the afternoon. Good thing Kat and Marcus were there to comfort me. Others, well… I guess they didn’t know what to say to me. I hate this sore mood. Reminds me of those hopeless days I had in secondary school. When I used to wonder what was wrong with me and fantasized about being popular.
these feelings are stupid. I want to let go right now.
