Ok… So if things weren’t meant to happen, they won’t happen. God’s will reigns over all and no matter how much we try to work against it, it won’t work.
That mindset’s been slowly and painfully imprinted onto my head and the inevitable question pops into my mind, “So what exactly is God’s will?” I want so many pretty things but sometimes they aren’t meant for me no matter how much I pine for them, sulk, beg… you name it! Haha maybe the timing’s not right and God will grant them to me in the future, whenever He deems it is appropriate; in the meanwhile I shall patiently wait.
Still wondering how to get through making a Dumbledore’s library’s worth of decisions; so many things to do, so many things to catch up on and, most unfortunately, a continuously winding list of distractions to always count on to drag me away from my priorities that are calling out to me in desperation.
Argh… is the feeling that I’m feeling right now, it’s so apt and I’ve probably never cherished a word more in my life! Argh… there I go again! haha
I need you God more than ever and my heart and thoughts are all in this haphazard mess that I can’t untangle myself from; all these minute complications accumulate as the days go by and they are becoming way more gigantic and harder to get out of!
I’m breaking my own heart! I have to change for the better!
I’m lost, rescue me please…
