Ah… Another amazing week has gone by and I’m feeling surprisingly relaxed; it’s the airy and free feeling of walking along a beach and I’m loving every minute of it.
I would say this week was life changing; so many powerful and impactful things happened to me all at once and so I was very afraid of how I was going to take it all in and settle down to study before the math test on Thursday. Thankfully, by Friday my brain was back to normal but the test… hmm… that’s another story altogether…
It was a week of breakthroughs that I had waited so long for, so long that it felt like an eternity. Now that it has come, all the pain and sorrow from the waiting seemed so long ago, so distant, like it never existed. For the past few years I wandered, searched, hoped and prayed for change, that some day a miracle would magically fall from the sky and I would be set free at long last, of all my inhibitions and insecurities.
When does night end and morning begin? Shades of grey it seems to be, moving on into a new stage of my life; I’m not afraid anymore and I choose to move forward into the light and keep looking forward towards the great prospects God has for my life.
Today’s sermon in church was so apt for what I was going through, it was on how our bondage to sin was broken when Jesus was nailed to the cross and the power of God had set us free. I was so amazed at how God worked, it seemed like the entire week was geared up to the moment when I went forward and was prayed for by Pastor Michael. Normally, I would have been too scared to go up but something broke in me and I knew that God was calling me to. Claire was so nice to go up with me and I was so touched by God’s grace and providence that I thought I was going to cry. Ah… How great is our God? 
Even the songs played by the worship team really touched my heart, they were Complete by the Parachute band and Amazing Grace by Chris Tomlin. I kept singing the songs and giving God my whole heart, it was amazing…
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice–my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.
Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice–my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I’ll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again
So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I’ll see beyond my Calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You
Yes, I will be complete in you God (:
