February 12, 2009

hey guys, I’m back for good, I think… haha it’s been a really long time and a lot of shaking up to get me back here! haha

Anyway, I think God opened my eyes to something today, it happened during tuition when I almost half falling asleep. I was really trying to stay awake but pinching myself and singing songs in my head didn’t really seem to work. >.<

Lately, I guess a lot of stuff has been happening and I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders and I don’t really know how to handle it. Looking at others makes me feel so demoralised; some people seem to have it all and next to them I feel incredibly small. Something popped into my head whilst I was standing in the gap between conciousness and sleep, that some things just weren’t meant to be and I was trying too hard to be something I was not.

haha the moment the thought crossed my mind, I suddenly felt a surge of energy and I listened to my teacher for the next 2 hours of tuition! yeah right… that’ll be a happy ending to the story but happy endings aren’t easy to come by you know… every moment takes a lot of strength and perseverance, it also helps to have people by your side cheering you on. I’m grateful God has placed constant encouragers in my life! You know who you are! Love you guys to bits!

My favourite song now is Beauty in Walking Away by Marie Digby. (thanks Kat for the CD!!!)  It feels so dreamy like my perpetual mood and the lyrics strike a note in my heart, I wonder why… I still don’t understand what the song is really about, but I like it anyway! The drums in the intro is perfect for me getting into that dreamy mood, I can’t stop listening to it! haha according to my iPod song count, I think I’ve listened to it for more than 150 times!!! haha talk about being addicted to a song!!!

A light shines off in the distance
A pale flickering glow
How many times do I have to dream that I could be there
The time is here and she won’t be waiting for me to find the easy way out
I’ve lost count of the days that were wasted

There’s an answer in the sound of a train
There is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There’s a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
There’s a beauty in walking away

I float on the streets that are empty
Take the path that the wind only knows
Tonight is the last time that I’ll ever be here

There’s an answer in the sound of a train
There is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There’s a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
There’s a beauty in walking away

It’s never quite simple, it’s never that safe
It never seems perfect until it’s too late
It’s never the right time to find a new way

There’s an answer in the sound of a train
There is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There’s a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
There’s a beauty in walking away

valentine’s day eve tmr, i wanna show my friends my love and appreciation for them! hope you guys like what you’re getting!!!

thanks a bunch you round headed, magic pocket creature!