Hmm… It’s nice to see that people are still nice to me even after I was really mean, cruel to them and refuse to reply emails until a month later. It still brings a smile to my face when ever I think about that crazy point of time in my life; the nutter who obsesses over every tiny detail and an oblivious third party who keeps fueling the source to all my problems. 
好久不见
Yesterday, I had the most interesting day. It’s something like doing lots of stuff that you’ve never done before all packed into one day.
CM was awesome! I led worship for the first time and my verdict is that it’s an extremely fun and rewarding experience. Funny how nothing ever goes as planned though; the microphones didn’t work, the sideshow did not come out exactly right and I did the wrong actions for some of the songs, thoroughly confusing the children, but on the whole it was great! It’s so fun that after the entire thing was over, I wanted to sing and do more actions with the kids again! Luckily the sunday school teachers and kids were not too harsh on me and they kinda thanked me for a job “well done”.
After worship, I sat down with some of the kids on the mat and smiled at them. I am please to say that they did smile back and quite broadly too! Also, I was quite happy that I could get even the most grouchy kid to smile! Colouring was seriously fun! The kids had to colour a picture of Samson and, as per usual, their colouring goes all over the place, but I do know that it’s them exercising their creativity! It’s not good to strive to do things too well all the time, I guess we need our freedom to make mistakes and learn from them too! Oh yes, and Keisha this really quiet kid talked really loudly for the first time! I was so happy to hear her talking about her wonderful colouring so animatedly that I wanted to give her a hug but she, being a not so touchy person, declined.
The perks about being in CM is that I get to hug cute little kids a lot. Sometimes some of them come up to me for no reason and just give me a hug. Yesterday, one girl came up to me and hugged me and said that I was so nice to hug. She was so cute that I had to hug her back and we started talking about tennis. Super random but interesting.
Yesterday was also my Aunty’s birthday! My whole family went to Sushi Tei at Vivocity to celebrate. Conversation was as per usual, guys talking about WOW again and girls trying to figure out what they were talking about. Sigh… We went to mother garden after that and took a look at the adorable seals! Crazy guy cousins tried to get me to pay $75 for one seal in a strawberry costume. It’s seriously cute but it’s not my kind of thing to buy stuffed animals. I don’t even remember the last time I bought one.
That’s all from me for now!
Bye
I seriously think that I just experienced the greatest shock in my life! It’s so shocking that it’s going to take me a long time, of about a gazillion years, to get over completely. I don’t know whether to feel flattered or stunned or just pure disgusted… Whatever it is, it’s going to be eventually sorted out because this is the way life works, thank God for that because all things work for the good of those who love the Lord who have been called according to his purpose.
Anyways… CF camp had it’s ups and downs. Now that I have more time to reflect on what happened during camp, I think I feel so much better about all that happened as even the bad stuff will turn out to be blessings in disguise in the end, that is if I choose to be positive about it and learn the important lessons from the horrible experiences.
Honestly, at night after each day, I would feel enormously like a pile of crud, to put it simply. I think that I made too many bad decisions and was pretty harsh on myself and the others around me. Haha, I think that I even scared some of them. 
Thank God for great friends and people who unknowingly encouraged me while I was feeling rather down, I guess they didn’t know what I was going through but I am glad that, by the grace of God, they approached me and said nice stuff to me and prayed for me.
I think that the two most significant events during the camp was the Prayer Station and the extended worship, they really helped in allowing me to focus and just simply dwell on God. I thought of many things that I had never really thought of before or thought of in a long time such as the well being of my family, the disasters that are going on around the world right now, my friends and my own integrity in all aspects of my life. It was a difficult and painful process but somehow I had to go through it and the time was then, I had to go through it eventually…
My group was interesting… I realised during the camp that my group had the most boys and we had really extroverted people! That is so unlike myself who really prefers to be quiet. We had loads of fun doing crazy stuff and hanging around. I am so glad that we could all get along pretty well and I was happy when we all left CF Camp as a united group. We won friendliest group by the way.
I was thinking about what breakthrough I really needed in my life right now and it was to just be relaxed and take it easy. During camp I was terribly anxious and I had this wacky group member, who goes around asking people if they like coke or sprite, tell me over and over, “Relax!”
Thinking of all the times we spent joking and running around during the games makes me smile, my group is one fun bunch!
Thank God for CF Camp, all good and the bad bits of it because in the end it’s all going to work out for the better!:)
Love you guys!
