Love Abounds in this Place :) May 26, 2008

I reckon that I have been caught up in too many things, namely CIP and something else which is to be name later after the whole ordeal is over. Don’t get me wrong, I love the feeling of being involved in something big that is for the greater good of everyone, so I have been working exceedingly hard to make sure that everything turns out well and everyone enjoys themselves!!!

The downside of this is that I these 2 events are making me extremely hyper so I can’t stop jumping up and down with joy for these opportunities that have been so graciously presented to me. I’m so glad!!!

To an extent, I’m nervous about what might go wrong, I hope that everything will go well and as planned but hiccups are inevitable. So I decided, just do your best and let God do the rest!!

I’ve been waiting for a long time for a chance like this and it has fallen on my lap. It’s terribly exciting to think of all that I can do and accomplish with this chance that has been given to me.

Also, I love MGS!!! I guess that we never really know the value of something until it’s gone. I realised that only on Friday when I went back and met my ex-classmates, Kjelti, Rachel and Agnes. Talking with them was nice and walking around to our old hangouts around the school was fantastic! It felt that I was never really gone and MG was always going to be a part of me. Everything felt so familiar, the sights, the sounds, the atmosphere… Everything that I ever knew seem to have come from staying in this school for a long time.

One incredibly important lesson I learnt this week is to always look straight ahead at the things that we have to do. Keep focused on the task at hand and just do your best, what happens just be proud of it because you did your best.

Also, I learnt why I should be comfortable with making mistakes because it’s only through making mistakes that we learn how to do things well. If we’re so anxious to do things perfectly, we become exceedingly anxious and we don’t dare to do lots of stuff that we could learn from to do things better. So, I decided that I’m going to try lots of new stuff and risk embarrassing myself because the rewards are going to be a lot greater than what I sacrifice.

I admit that I am fearful and anxious of all the challenges that are ahead of me, there is still lots that I have to learn to become all that you want me to be, but I will stand firm in your promises and do my best in all that I have to do, trusting that you will provide all that I need to do your will.

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 Corinthians 9:9

If you know what I’m talking about, then I’ll probably see you soon. I look forward to meeting you and having a great time with you. See you soon

Exemplary May 4, 2008

Certainly, the lot of them expect exemplary behaviour from me, whether or not they would get it is another issue altogether.

God has answered many of my prayers and I am exceedingly grateful to him! I realised that what was missing in my life last year was prayer; I tried so hard to be a good Christian on my own, without relying on Him for help. There were many situations, problems and challenges that I tried to face by my own strength, but sooner or later all my efforts fell through and I lost faith. Thankfully, the Lord has been gracious to me and has restored my faith in him through the smallest of ways. Sometimes the smaller events have greater impact than the big ones and so I shall appreciate every event as it comes knowing that there is purpose behind everything that happens!

Funny how so many opportunities have been strewn in my path yet I was blind to them and let them past. It was only when I decided to take a chance on one of them that it exploded into a bigger one and I feel afraid to screw it up. I am so fortunate for the favour that the Lord has showered on me, why should I fear?

It’s amazing how God works and how everything is interconnected in some way or another. Stuff that was done will have its consequences. Every decision, every choice, every thought, every action, every word has impact, so I will be careful because everything has its consequences.

Be careful…