Dreamy February 18, 2008

I still don’t get this: over the last seven days, I saw him at least three times at the same place, at the same time, on three days.

I remember the first time I saw him last week was when I was walking hastily over the overhead bridge towards the Buona Vista MRT station. He was walking away, by the way. For some reason, before I saw him, I just thought of him and, suddenly, he appeared right in front of me!! I had to scrutinise his face for a good three seconds before I realised that I knew him! I think I recognised his funky hair first, the black rimmed glasses, followed by his long, thin, sharp nose, and then I looked down at his shirt and noticed the ACS badge. I so knew this guy… He’s that half-caucasian guy, who’s my brother’s classmate and, incidentally, the guy whom I had a tiny crush on for his geeky appearance!

After I realised I knew him, I went on my way smiling to myself like an idiot while recalling that scene at the airport where I first saw him. My mom and I were sending my brother off at the airport for his school’s OEP programme and I was there watching my brother show off his PSP to his admiring chums. Out of the blue, this really geeky-looking fellow clutching a pile of yellow cloth, approached my brother to hand him one piece. Initially, I thought that he was the tour guide because of his tall stature and that he wasn’t wearing anything with the ACS logo on it but this really stylish black-and-white striped shirt, that made him look intelligent but artsy at the same time. Afterwards, I learnt from my brother some really interesting facts about him. He’s half french and he was the class president! That’s like so cool, I never thought I’d find anyone french in ACS. He also speaks french fluently and, not surprisingly, swears in french!!

The next day, I was hoping to see him again, and I did!! I was so ecstatic that I couldn’t stop smiling even when I boarded the MRT travelling towards Boon Lay! Then again, I had to force that smile off my face when I noticed this creepy-looking army guy peering at me from under his bangs. As though I won’t notice, humph!

The following day was Valentines day and Rui told me to say ‘hi’ to him on this special day. I am so sorry to let her down… That day I woke up late and missed the opportunity to see him!! I had to rush all the way to school and I had to be booked by the teachers for being super late! (Assembly starts at 7.40, I reached school at 8.00) 

Valentines day was fun!! There was the exchange of lots of gifts, sweets and flowers… I worked on my gifts for three days straight and I hoped that my classmates liked them. The only problem was that the ink from the sponge would stain anyone who touch it, hidieously creating a big mess!

I’ll be finding out tonight whether or not I get into the JC of my choice…  I hope to be be able to make nice friends and learn my school work without being distracted. I commit it all to God and that he’ll do the best for me. Amen

Glamorous… February 8, 2008

Today, I met a bunch of family friends whom I had not met in almost over a year. It was great being with them again and catching up with them was great fun.

I talked to Abigail, a girl whom I used to attend tuition classes with, and her sister, Deborah. Their brother really grew up that I could not recognise him at all. Funny how I used to tease the boys for being smaller than me in primary school and as soon as they get to secondary school, they shoot up and it’s their turn to tease me for being smaller!

I saw most of my childhood friends, people whom I had grown up with and gone on tons of holidays with, and I realised that they have changed loads. I admit that the boys look a lot better now and the girls are a lot prettier. They look so cool actually that sometimes I could not believe it was them whom I had met so long ago.

While I was there, I realised that I really lost myself, in the sense that I wasn’t thinking about anything else but my friends. I just totally enjoyed myself, a luxury nowadays. Usually, I’m distracted, thinking about other stuff that are so unimportant. I prayed that I would give my undivided attention to whatever I am doing and not give my half-hearted effort to anything. I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief!

I got to go to my cousin’s home to play mahjong now… Till next time…

Unimaginable February 5, 2008

Everything that has been happening these past few weeks is like a whirlwind, so many things are happening so quickly at the same time that I barely have enough time to steady myself.

Lately I find myself involved in so many activities that I think that I’m exhausting myself. I feel so tired all the time and my friends have commented that my eye bags have gotten bigger. Luckily, I’ve got tons of family and friend support to continue doing the things that I was told to do and I’m certain that I’ll do it well. I love them all so much for their kindness and generosity. Sometimes I wish that there were 48 hours a day…

I’ve also been smsing a lot more and talking on the phone excessively… I think I’d faint when I see my bill… I guess that I can’t help it, there are so many opportunities around here that I can’t help but grab at all of them. I need to be more discerning now…

I got to get back to my little project now…